Thursday(30-4-2009)around 9am

Sorry for late posting
in this week i had been never go to school for 3 days
my dad went to KL already so he can't fetch me

the first day is on monday:the reason is overslept(doing homeworks until late late)

the second day is on wednesday:because of playing computer until late late

and the third day is on thursday:because the taxi driver play a fool on me(i immediately wait the taxi after i called, BUT I DIDN'T SAW ANY TAXI!)
AND IT WAS LATE TO SCHOOL ALREADY
I WAIT LIKE AN IDIOT

and so i go up to my house and call the taxi to ask why no taxi was there
and he told me that the taxi driver had been waiting me so long

KNS THAT TAXI COMPANY!
i wait so long also didn't saw any taxi
i see everywhere also dun hab
while waiting, i suddenly saw a taxi coming so i open its door, then got a woman sitting inside asking me why i open the taxi's door
(but i wait the taxi so long already, how come my taxi haven't arrive)
I am still new in Penang,dunno ride public bus
(somemore i dun wan to take the risk, dunno the bus will go where later)

Sad,never been to school for three days in this week
my exam is coming soon, i'm so worrry
teacher and classmate keep asking me why i didn't went to school
and i told them "Oh,saya pergi belajar motor la" ==" sweat
I really need god to lend me his strength
I dun wan to missed my school anymore
I hate to catch up the missed school works

Tuesday (21-4-2009) 5.16am

Just wake up from the bed
Feeling steam steam
Then viewing K.Gor's blog
Can't forget my K.Gor
Yesterday I offline without greeting him Goodnight
I guess he started to ignore me,I can feel that he hate me unless I think too much
I done something weird yesteday too
I deleted all contact from my msn except K.Gor
Then appear offline and watching he online
I guess his request is that I don't talk too much
Anyway,I'm really don't know how brother thinking and
I don't know whether what I am doing are right

And now,nothing to do..so sleep again

No matter what happened,
You still my kor
Chris Guang Kor
And I wan to say "Thank You"
Sorry for what I had did

Monday (20-4-2009) 10:26pm

Now feeling sad
I hate myself, I am really stupid
I hate myself because don't know how to appreciate K.Gor
I just try to entertain him but it's actually annoying
I very very hate myself
Now I don't know should talk with K.Gor onot
If I chat with him sure he will feel that I am annoying
Now feel like wan to chat with brother but worry he will feel that i'm annoying
But if I don't chat with him now,no chance to chat already after july
It's really miserable when you really want to talk with someone but you don't know you should or not..
I'm confuse and don't know what should I do now to appreciate someone
Sad,hate myself
Someone should stab my heart now
I already have enough of this kind of life with many problems
-Quarrel with parent
-Quarrel with frens
-Having study problem
-Worry about my health
-Worry about my future
(there's other more I hate to mention it)
Am I fated to stay alone?
I didn't want to hate god because of that


I hope K.Gor and my friends won't end up leaving me alone
I know outside there are other people who are suffering more than me SO!
I must try to stand up and start a new life,I must survive!!

Monday (20-4-2009) 5.02p.m.

Today i didn't go to school
I lie to my dad that I overslept
Then my K.Gor came to my flat at around 9.40am to send me to hospital
Then at hospital I make an appointment
The nurse told to come back hospital on 5-5-2009
Then on the afternoon,I eat KFC with K.Gor
after that I went back home

I won't regret on what I had been done for someone and I felt happy
I didn't felt sad or regret that I spend my angpao money because you are one of the important person in my life
And I'm very thankful

Saturday morning (18-4-2009)just wake up 2.36a.m.

I slept around 9.30p.m. on friday
Then suddenly dunno why woke up at 2.30 a.m.(saturday morning)
not feel like sleeping anymore
Then i walk out from my room decide finding something to eat
This morning make me feel unhappy since i woke up at 2.30am
I not sure why
and now,
I feeling lonely watching the night sky through my window
I hate this feeling
and I can't remember clearly what happened yesterday,
my mind feel very blank and confuse

I slept back around 4am

Thursday(16-4-2009)

(3.57p.m.)Just came back from school
Felt very stress ah, spm getting near
Today after school i helping seniors(form 6)
Then I go canteen to eat(1 noodles + 3xeggs and 1 rice+rice)
Feel very full even now
Feel sleepy and tired but still wan find someone to chat with

(6.08p.m.)Very sian today = ="...K.Gor no online
haiz...Juz now though wan to go swimming but lazy also
juz now i called the Continental,decide to go learn motor tomorrow
VERY sian today......dead

Bored~Bored~Bored and Bored

Hate today (15-4-2009)Wednesday

Today I quarrel with my frens
And my physic(peka) gone missing
The story going like dis,my teacher borrow my physic peka to a malay boy then the malay boy lend the physic peka to another malay boy and then another people have lend my physic peka again and then MY PHYSIC PEKA R.I.P
So I have to do the whole peka again, sian ah..why i so bad luck
Today no mood,just back came back from school...
Hope can chat with my K.Gor
He's good in singing!!
Very admire him

end of the post today~ nothing to write

Boring Day =(~~~Saturday 11-4-2009

Today go to school as usual
Feel sleepy in school
After school i go to prangin with friends eating kimchi
and I bought a swimming pant
Total I have spent rm13.2(food) and rm59.31 for swimming pant

Go back to home by public bus
Then bath,eat and taking washed cloths from washing shop
FEEL VERY BORED
-walk at 5th floor of my condominium and no ones are there
-play psp until boring
-hate dota,lag and wasting time
-msn(shootthepig@hotmail.com) no ones online
-no friends call me go out
-feel like wan die in my room(my room is my cave)

TO ALL MY FRIENDS
Please call me to hang out with u all,I will join any activities
I loves to meet new friends.Although I don't have motorbike but please call me go out together!
ETC:shopping,eating,yam cha, or any activities
I will join!

BORED!!! NOTHING TO POST!!!! GRrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Sport Day(9-4-2009)

I long time didn't post something in my blog already

Actually nothing's special today,for me just a sport day

I wake up 4am then sleep again and wake up 6am

then reach school around 7am

then i go to school dewan changing the melayu shirt immediately
i never change shirt in dewan before just i follow what the others did

then after prepared everything we go to school's shuffle house to performed Dikir Barat for the vip

And then the sport day finish around 12pm-1pm

and I went back by my fren's motor bike.